It had been quite some time since i blog.. haf been busy busy busy taking care of little ashtonn.. He is such a little devil.. He is an angel only when he's asleep.. hahax.. but so far everything is gd la.. hubby had been busy busy busy wif his work... very tired when he reach home at nite.. so often sleep very early... as for me i watch tv till quite late cuz ashtonn didnt slp much.. kept waking up..I remembered tat xl asked me whether im xing fu anot.. Well.. my life can be quite bored and tiring... Im sure no 20yrs old gal would wan a life like mine.. but im sure im xing fu... whenever im with my children n hubby.. I feel very very xing fu... I love them!

Nowadaes very emotional.. like to listen to those sad sad songs tat reflected my feelings.. Sometimes i dunno how to express my feelings to him thru words.. so i often found myself sending him sms in the middle of the nite so tat he can see when he wake up the next morning although he is jux sleeping beside me... Sob sob  I feel tat im such a failure in marriage.. no matter how much i done for him its also a waste of my time... wat more can i do? I really dunno... 

错了再错

退到了绝境再退,破碎到不能破碎
那么为什么,你就不肯说,我只能再一却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲,绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说慌,我却受惩罚
你不如就用到此想
我可以痛了再痛,你可以错了再错
不甘心,不闪躲,只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你玩着火,你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破
爱和痛如此纠结,悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累,成了一片黑
相同都已无法相灭
泪水滋润着泪水,背叛是黎明一种慰藉
完美的借口,泪无不留下,你不如用乱箭射他
我可以痛了再痛,你可以错了再错
不甘心,不闪躲,只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你玩着火,你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破
即使我头也不回,这悲剧猛向我追
情愿你全部摧毁,别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没,给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却困住了我
我可以痛了再痛,你可以错了再错
不甘心,不闪躲,全为了失真的承诺
我转身让你玩着火,你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破
为什么...... 连谎言你也不说

Nice song from Zhang Dong Liang.. Great lyrics, great music, great vocal..

These few daes seems so long..cuz most of the time im alone or hurt by him..cried so much till my eyes swollen... but jux cant hold back my tears.. its very difficult to do so when u r facing the 1 u love.. thought of the moment we make our vow at ROM... my vow to him...

Pledged to be ur wife,

I vow to love, to hold, to cherish

And never disrespect the love we share.

In sickness and in health,

Till death do us apart.

 

Sometimes.. memories are the sweetest thing in one's life.